Thursday, April 29, 2010

Incompleteness in Absence

"Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. . . . When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence".
Edmond de Goncourt (1822-96) and Jules de Goncourt (1830-70), French writers.
The Goncourt Journals (1888-96; repr. in Pages from the Goncourt Journal, ed. by Robert Baldick, 1962), entry for 15 Nov. 1859.


I believe this statement to be true. But my view of what love is seems to evolve every year. Next year, when I am in a different place, will I still believe this statement? Or will I scoff at me of today for thinking that love completes a person? I hope I am not jaded and hard hearted, but I have been there before and life has taught me to never say never. I must be on guard with myself to keep my attitude turned towards the positive.


I am definitely not writing on here as much as I thought I would...or feel that I should. Internet is up at home. I am loving sitting in front of my Mac again. Oh, how I had missed it...but apparently not enough to do anything about it for a couple years. By the time I settle down for the evening I just want to read a chapter or two from a book and go to bed. I do not desire to compose blog posts or make rational thoughts any longer. I want to do that while I am at work, where I do not get paid to compose blog posts...or really even to think...but I have made a rule that I can not do that.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Tragus

I got the tragus on each of my ears pierced this weekend. I love it. That is all.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

TGIF eve!

I like quotes...I like quotes a lot. Sometimes, it is just the way the words are used; sometimes, it is the meaning behind them...but quotes make my heart smile.

I read this one in one of my Printing Magazines (p38 CANVAS December 2009)
"I told you, it's Friday. But for me, everyday is Friday. There is something about people's moods on Fridays. Look around; if this was Tuesday, people would be different. If everybody acted on Tuesday like they did on Friday, we would all be a hell of a lot less ticked off all the time."

This is now hanging in my cubicle as a reminder.

I think that is something to aspire to. When it comes down to it, my mood, it is determined by me. I can not always control my emotions (I've tried and failed) but I can control how I react to them. I can choose to look for the good in everything. For example, I was mowing my yard - with a push-mower - the other day...I do not enjoy this. However, I decided that the sound of the motor was soothing, the sun on my shoulders felt amazing and I found something peaceful about the whole experience...and it all went better than usual. I didn't hate it as much. I hope I apply this mindset to more things in life...and the next time I have to mow my yard.

Biblical support:
2 Cor. 10:5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Starting

Getting started, that is sometimes the hardest step. I have an idea for where I want this to go...but I have no idea how I want to start this.

First step: set up blog.
check, complete
Second step: do not blog at work, get internet at home.
um, fail...actually work-in-process, looking up internet options for home.
Third step: write about steps to become physically fit, emotionally fit & spiritually fit - they all require being intentional.